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Stop Worrying About Being a Bad Wife – Kaitlin Chappell

September 15, 2018

 

Stop Worrying About Being a Bad Wife


I thought my husband was dead yesterday.

 

I’m not being dramatic. I was absolutely convinced he died.

 

It all started at 4:30 a.m. when he woke me up like a little kid on Christmas day. He was headed out to go fishing in his new kayak. He had been talking about his Monday, solo fishing trip for days – and it was finally here.

 

He’s a teacher with summers off, but none of his friends could go fishing with him on a random Monday. That was not going to stop him.

 

He packed up, gave me a kiss goodbye, and told me he’d call to wake me up at 6 a.m. Away he went to reel ’em in.

 

I overslept and woke up at 7 with no missed calls and no texts, and I immediately panicked. He never doesn’t call when he says he will. My first thought? He drowned in the lake.

 

I called my mom and she calmed me down. “He probably doesn’t have service,” she said.

 

I knew she was right, but my mind raced with worst-case possibilities all day.

 

Like any irrational wife, I even tried to call the marine police AND 9-1-1… NO ONE ANSWERED. (I’m not proud that I resorted to calling them, but I didn’t know what else to do, OK?)

 

My best friend and my mom were getting ready to pick me up from work and head to Gurley, AL to find my fisherman.

 

I couldn’t focus at work and I was shaking from fear. I had prayed all day and knew I should open up my clenched fist and let God hold my worry, but I just wasn’t budging.

 

Then, I started to replay all the ways I’d been a bad wife the past week, month, year. What if I never see him again and the last night we spent together I was grouchy and tired? I was beating myself up like an Everlast punching bag.

 

Fear creeps in during vulnerable moments. Fear is not from God – it’s from our enemy looking to steal our joy. He sees an opening and he takes it, hoping to score a touchdown. Newsflash – our God has already won the game.

 

Isaiah 43:1 says, “Don’t fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine.”

 

You are HIS. And so is your husband. You cannot ever love or protect your husband more than His Father can, so stop putting so much pressure on yourself.

 

The pressure of perfection leads to fear of failure.

 

Embracing the fear of being a bad wife or the fear of losing your husband will never move you forward. Embracing the promises and plans of our Creator will always move you forward closer to Him and closer to the abundant life He has for you.

 

While I knew all of God’s promises to be true, I still let fear creep in and convince me that my life would fall apart. Our lives won’t crumble to the ground if they are built on the strong foundation of Jesus.

 

I finally got a call around 1 p.m. “Hey babe! How are ya?” the chipper voice on the other end said.

 

I replied, “CALEB ROGERS,” in a very distressed voice. I explained to him that I thought he was dead and he apologized that he had no service whatsoever. I couldn’t even be mad at him because I was so happy to hear his voice!

 

At lunch with my coworkers shortly after the fiasco, I told one of my bosses (one of the best people I know) the entire story.

 

She said, “You have to stop worrying so much.”

 

I told her I absolutely should stop worrying so much and really learn to hand things over to God. It doesn’t add a second to your life, after all!

Matthew 6:27 “Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?”

 

She agreed and said, “Yes – that’s actually the Gospel truth!” We laughed for a minute before she said, “But no, you need to stop worrying so much about being a bad wife.”

 

And the grace washed over me.

 

The possibility of death has a way of confronting us with our own shortcomings.

 

I tell other women how to give themselves more grace, and here I am shaming myself for not being my idea of a perfect wife.

 

Wives, we have to stop with the unrealistic expectations we set for ourselves. We absolutely should strive to love, encourage, and honor our husbands, but when we fall short, we can’t dwell on our downfalls. We are more than the mistakes we make as people and as spouses.

 

I guarantee you your husband doesn’t think you’re as bad as you think you are. He sees your beauty and your love over your nagging and bad habits. That doesn’t mean you don’t do things to upset him; it means he gives you grace and loves you through it – just like Jesus.

 

READ MORE: 8 Days of Grace

 

Please don’t read this story and give up trying to be a loving wife to your loving husband. But please do read this and take the pressure off yourself to be a perfect wife to an imperfect husband – you’re both human.

 

Stop worrying about your performance as a spouse – give it over to God and trust His will in it all. You can’t control the universe like God can, so let Him handle it.

 

Far too often, we cling tight to fear and forfeit the peace at our fingertips.

 

God wants you to live with a light heart, not one weighed down with anxious thoughts.

 

You are a wife for a reason, so stop sweating the small stuff and love your Jesus and your family like only you can. No distraction the enemy tries to throw your way will prevail.

 

You were made for so much more than stress and anxiety, so walk in the perfect peace of God and love your people from that place.

 

Wife Step: Place your hands out in front of you, palms open and faced up and pray: Lord I give you my worry. I give you my fear. I don’t want to be controlled by this anymore. I trust you with the outcome. I trust you can handle this. I lay my anxious heart in front of you, and surrender it all to you, Lord. Amen.

 

Kaitlin is a newlywed striving to be a strong half of a Kingdom team with her hunk of a husband. She is a lover of words, good coffee, and exploring new cities. Her favorite places include airports, hotel rooms, and bookstores and she has yet to meet a stranger she doesn’t like. Kaitlin is addicted to shopping, yoga, and brunch and couldn’t make it a single day without her dream-supporting family and best friends. She hopes everyone who meets her sees Jesus in her eyes and feels a little lighter when they leave her presence. You can say hi to Kaitlin on social media at @kchaprogers on Instagram and Twitter, @kaitlinchappellrogers on Facebook, or on her website at kaitlinchappell.com!

 

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